My Turn

Well, here we are, six days into 2025.  Although I’m trying to stay positive this year, it has kind of been a rough start.  Friday was an emotional day for some reason.  This weekend, I just wanted to stay home and hibernate.  Sometimes, you just need weekends like that, where you just stay cozied up on the couch, watching sports or a trashy tv show.  The Bills were already in the playoffs, so I could watch that game in peace and not stress.  

This year, my goal is to really work on myself and figure out myself.  There are a lot of things I want to achieve this year, but I am infamous for not having patience and wanting it all right now.  I need to be better about that.  I also need to be better about having faith in myself.  I have always been extremely hard on myself, but I feel the last year was the worst.  

At the end of the day, we are all people.  We all have struggles.  We all have good and bad days.  I need to tell myself it is ok to have these good and bad days.  This is all a part of the journey we call “life”.  We need to stay kind to ourselves.  Too often, we put others before ourselves and we mustn’t do that, at least not all of the time.  

2025 is the year of me.  The me era?  Oh, Taylor would be so proud.

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